Loner

“Loner”

I continue to
Try and be
The best person
I can but I’m
Always seen
As inadequate
Or made to feel
As if I’m
Not
Enough

Or as if
The skin
I was born
In is my calling
Card to failure…

I’ve never felt
As if I fit
In or belonged to
This world but
Still I try to
Hold my head up
And press on

But lately within
Myself I’ve been
Losing
The light

Succumbing
To this feel
Of loneliness
Where only I
Know the
Pain
Behind these
Eyes

That no
One cares to
Look…

I thought that
I’d finally found
Myself after so
Long of looking

I thought
Finally someone
Would understand

But now
I know I’ll
Face this
World coldly
Alone

A
Loner

With no
Space

With no
Land.

┬ętam 11/28/17
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Strangers

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I hate that
I still feel
For you
Still want you
Still need
Still long to
Hear only
Your voice in
The dark

Hate that
I’m to stubborn
To say how
I’m really feeling
Or to reach out
To you

Hate that
In carrying
This burden
Of love in
My
Heart…

And truly
I hate the
Fact
That we are
Now

Strangers to
Each other

Once

Again.
┬ętam 10/23/16

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“Inside”

I feel
Like I’ve
Been
Walking Around
In a daze
Fazed
Out
Of place

Lately…

Just floating
Through my
Day with
My painted on
Smile all
The While
Feeling my
Heartbreak
With

Each step
I
Take heavily
Dressed in
My introverted
Emotions…

Going
Through the
Motions Because
No one
Cares to
Know

Why my
Smile doesn’t
Reach the light
In my Eyes but

For me this
Is normalcy
For all you
See is the
Outward mask
That I’ve decorated
so well to
Hide me…

Cause my
Reality you
Care not
To know

So inwardly
I allow
My
Tears to

Flow.
┬ęTam06/15/14

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